Tis Bittersweet

So I have come to the conclusion that either a) I go back home to Daytona for the summer and maybe the fall or b) go to work at a summer counselor job then go back to Daytona for the fall and then maybe come back to FAU or c) stick it out at FAU and see where life takes me....

All these choices and I don't know what to do anymore. It is taking a toll on my sleeping schedule, I can't stop thinking about it now. I don't know what to do anymore and since grades came out maybe I do need to go back to Daytona just for the time being. I know it is the suckers way out but I had a long talk with my friend and if this is the way I feel than so be it.

I know in a way that I let down my dad by coming back but if it saves me money and time and if I get better grades than I don't see why I shouldn't be able to do it. I love him to death but maybe it isn't time for me to move on just yet. If I get this job for the summer I can pay for classes at the college in Daytona and then figure out things from there.

I would hate to leave all my good friends that I have made at FAU but tis bittersweet how things turn out. I need to cut back on certain things and maybe this is the way I have to do it. It is a bittersweet farewell.